Hugs are the best!!!

It has been a while since I updated my blog so I thought I would just write a little something about the great night I had and some of the realizations I have come to about life. So tonight I went on a date for the first time in a while and this date actually came about because I took the initiative to talk to a friend and invite him to go to a Jazz game with me. Then he asked me out to dinner tonight! I was so excited! So you are probably thinking that we did something extraordinary but we didn't we just went to dinner and talked. I think what made me so happy is that he gave me a few really good hugs and that is something I have been missing a great deal lately. This got me thinking about how easily someone can have such a positive affect on me....just give me a hug:) Anyways random but I had to share. So guys the way to a girls heart is no a fancy, expensive date sometimes we just need a hug. I will post pictures from the Jazz game soon!

Mission????

A lot of my friends are starting their mission papers or have their calls. I'm excited for them, but I feel a little left out. I am starting to think about a mission, but I am right in the middle of the nursing program and to be honest I'm scared of going on one:) There is a part of me that wants to go, and another part that really doesn't think I could do it....and I don't want to go in the middle of school. Is that bad? Is it selfish? I need some advice people!

School, life, update...

So I know that it has been forever since I last blogged, but not a lot of exciting things have happened lately. I started back to school and Nursing is going well. It's not exactly what I expected but I think it will get more challenging in the coming months. I have recently taken my moms role while she and my step dad have been out of town for their anniversary. Let me just say that I'm glad I don't have children yet lol! My mom comes home in two days and it will be nice to get back to normal. Friend wise I'm feeling a bit lonely lately. Not because I don't have great friends, I do! It's just for about two months now I have felt something missing and finally figured out what it is-a best friend! To go and do everything with. Now some may think I mean a boyfriend, which would be nice, but I'm not picky I would be happy with a really good friend guy or girl that would spend time with me whenever I was bored or lonely:) So anyone looking for a best friend just give me a call! Well I know that does not sound all that exciting but that's my life right now. I'll keep you updated:)

Wisconsin Take 2:)

So I just got back from my wonderful vacation to Milwaukee, Wisconsin, where I visited my cousin Jen!  We had a lot of fun and I was actually able to relax and enjoy myself:) Here are a few pictures of the fun we had.  We went to a thing called Summer Fest where there are a lot of different bands playing and fun people to watch and of course great food:) One night that we were there I splurged and bought tickets to Kenney Chesney!  He was awesome and of course there were a ton of cute cowboys there:) We had BBQ's and hung out with Jen's group of friends.  It was a nice break from life back home:)

Nursing School...direction in life yay!!

Wow it has been a while and yes a lot of crazy things have happened in my life, but the most recent happy and exciting thing is....I got into the Nursing Program at UVU!!!  I am so glad!  I finally feel like things are coming together and pointing me in the right direction in life:)  I also just finished my physiology class on Wednesday and that felt so relieving!  Now it's like I don't know what to do with myself and all this free time:)  Don't worry I will fill it up fast lol!  I am leaving on a little get away as a present to myself for all of my hard work these last two years:)  I never do this for myself so I am excited!  I am flying out to spend some time with my cousin Jenny in Wisconsin on Tuesday!! I am excited!  I will take lots of pics and post them when I get back:)  I am just feeling so blessed right now!

Insights

So something kind of strange and unexpectant has happened to me over the last few days. I have come to realize that I don't mind being alone anymore. I mean yes, I love to go and do things with my family and friends sometimes....but I actually have grown to like "me" time:) yay! I never thought I would be ok with myself but I think it is coming slowly but surely!

It's been too long!

Hey everyone! Ok so I know it has been forever since I last posed anything. Sorry about that, my world has literally been turned upside down in ways I never imagined, but I'm hanging in there. So I have done some pretty fun traveling in the last few months and wanted to post some pictures on here. The first trip I took back in March over Spring Break to visit my cousin Jenny in Wisconsin! It was so much fun I love her and we had the best time together! We went fun places like the art and science museum, The Gig where her friend had a going away 80's party ( I loved getting all dressed up for that:) and then of course we had to try the famous fried cheese curds of Milwaukee! They were really good! Then I was super lucky about a month after returning from that trip my family got the chance to go to Maui, Hawaii! It was beautiful! I wish I could post all of the pictures I took but that would be like 200!! My aunt and uncle we so nice and let us go with them to there time share there and it was a much needed break from life! Somedays I still wish I was there:) We had so much fun in the sun! My cousins loved the sand, especially Olivia ( I love the picture of her playing). We also went snorkeling and I wished I had had an underwater camera the fish were so neat! Someday I want to go back there! So school is out now and it's a little weird being in between semesters but it's nice to have the free time. I have relearned how to crochet from my grandma and am currently working on a baby shawl that hopefully will be finished by the time I have my first! Good thing that is going to be awhile:) Oh and I almost forgot! I cut and colored my hair and I love it! I am going to keep it this dark for a while! Well I will keep you posted and more up to date on my crazy life:)

My 20th Birthday Party!

Hey so I finally have some fun pictures to post from my birthday party. It was actually a celebration of my brother kale's birthday too. He turned ten and I turned twenty! And yes I feel old! So we went down to Fairview where my aunt has a farm and up the mountain to a huge hill where we went skiing and sledding. It was a blast! Everyone made fun of me for how slow and cautious I was while skiing, but I think I am getting the hang of it:) Here are some of the pics...

Weight Watchers!

So I know, I know you are all thinking why is she doing weight watchers!? Well I am just trying to lose a few pounds before I go to Hawaii in April, but it is so hard! I am hungry all the time even though I feel like I eat less than a bird right now! Oh well, everyone says my body will adjust. I just hope it is soon:) Anyways random stuff I know but I need all the support I can get I guess.

Happy Birthday!

So yesterday was my birthday and it was an interesting birthday...I turned 20! And I feel so old because on my birthday I had to work and go to school...Boring!! I miss the days when I actually had time to celebrate turning one year older. But my family will celebrate with me in a few weekends so I will have pictures then I promise:)

Fun Shopping!

Wow what a crazy weekend!...But amid the craziness of taking care of my unlce's father and their dog while they were in Arizona, spending Valentine's day single, and trying to mend some family relationships, I still found time to have a little fun:) Today I went with my friend Beth and her mom and my mom to Park City and shopped until I dropped! It was awesome!! I found the cutest jacket and some other really good deals! I would put a picture on here of the jacket if my camera was working...grr! Anyways it was a really good day today and something I have needed for a long time! thanks bethie!! I'm hoping for the best for tomorrow:)

Losing a Friend

Losing a friend is perhaps one of the hardest things to go through in this life! It is especially hard when you are left with no other option and you have exhausted yourself trying to make things work out. You cry yourself to sleep so many nights and then you wake up one morning and realize that life has to move on. I'm sorry to say I have recently been through this and would appreciate any words of advice anyone can give me. Thank you.

Trust

Trust is a hard thing to earn and an easy thing to lose. Gaining that trust back once it is gone seems nearly impossible. I am a trusting person and I wish to stay that way, but some things in my life have happened lately that have made me doubt that I can do that. Letting someone back in once they have betrayed your trust, or simply ignoring the fact that you know something someone doesn't think you do is so so hard. I want to trust all of my friends and family, but for now I'm just going to trust in the Lord.

Lonely

I decided today that the worst feeling in the world is....feeling lonely. When you are used to someone always being around to go and do simple stuff like going to the store with you and then things change and that person isn't there anymore it's such an awful feeling. So if anybody can relate just know I feel your pain and give me a call because most likely I am feeling lonely too...

Hope

Today I gave a talk on the topic of Hope. I used President Uchdorf's talk called "The Infinite Power of Hope" from this last general conference. This is an amazing talk! If you have not gone back to read it you should! From this experience today I have a lot more hope for the future and I am so much happier! To me this just goes to prove that Heavenly Father knows us so personally that he even knows when to prompt your leaders to have you give a talk on a certain subject! From President Uchdorf's talk I found my new favorite quote and I would like to share it with you....

"No matter how bleak the chapter of our lives may look today, because of the life and sacrifice of Jesus Christ, we may hope and be assured that the ending of the book of our lives will exceed our grandest expectations."

Surviving!

Ok so I survived my talk in church today and I survived this last week! I have a feeling that this week is bound to be even busier!! One thing that I know I can always rely on though is my great group of friends! Thanks girls for the awesome time yesterday! We went to lunch and to a play and Becca did amazing!! Sorry I forgot my camera again!! I promise I will get better at taking more pictures to post! I hope everyone has a wonderful week!

Families Are Forever

Firsts...

Hey everyone! This week has had a lot of firsts...and crazy ones at that!  This is my first post on my first blog I have ever created.  Also the most crazy thing I have done this week is I drew someone's blood at the doctors office I work at!  It was my first time and yes I did feel a bit faint, but by the third and fourth draw I was not even getting light headed:) Well I also have my first real experiment in microbiology lab on Wednesday so we will see how that goes...anyways my life right now can be described by a lot of first time experiences and I will share them with you and gt some pictures on here soon:)